This is Peanut Butter Brickle. What do you do really good? Do you cook really good?
Are you an excellent dancer like Fruitycake?
Do you like to knit? Sew?
We all have talents. We all have things that we love to do. Usually, I have found that I am not good at all of the things I love to do. But that is the fun part. I get to keep trying to be really good. And I can always go twice as high as what I think I can do. I seem to be my hardest critic. I bet you are the same.
We had a lot of work last week. We had to film something. We can’t tell you what it is yet, but you have to know that Fruitycake did such a good job. Digby would have been proud of his acting skills.
Obviously, you know how good I did. But honestly, I do always doubt myself. What do others think of me? And when I start thinking like that, it affects me. I don’t do as good of a job because I am not concentrating on what I am doing. Other opinions are loud if we listen. If we try not to listen, there is a peace with that and more time to do a good job.
As we were camping on top of a mountain this weekend, I saw a butterfly. She was flying high!
She was on top of the mountain, but I was on top of the mountain too. It was effort for the both of us. And even though she was lighter than me, I felt that I was floating higher. Why?
It has been a hard six months without my brother Digby. I had surgery. I miss my best friend. Some days are harder than others. And maybe I don’t know some days if I want to keep trying without him.
Have you went through something that isn’t going to go away? I will always miss my brother and the weight of sadness can push me down that mountain. But when I think of what Digby would want me to do with my life, and to be thankful that I am here, I have to leave that weight behind. It is only then I can do what I need to. Live.
We all are stronger than what we think. Butterfly in the sky? I can go twice as high. And so can you.
I will see you on top of the mountain.
-Peanut Butter Brickle
