This is Sheriff Peanut Butter Brickle. I have heard of persons getting what they call “cold feet.” You know, feet that are with them with they make choices in life, but then, they seem to backtrack, turn around and question everything again. Well, at least that is what I think it means to have cold feet.
But for Boy Person, when he says he has cold feet, he has cold feet. Feet that are cold because it is 34 degrees outside. Perhaps he should wear socks other times then when he has flip flops on. Just saying. Our heaters aren’t working in the RV, and we ran short on propane. Yes, that stuff that keeps everything working when it is really cold. So yeah. Girl Person says that all four of our butts ended up on a two butt couch, which, more accurately would only be a one butt couch in a regular house. But yeah. We had to keep warm in any way possible. Even if that meant eventually kicking the persons off the couch, Boy Person in a chair right by the little heater, and Girl Person just giving up and making coffee to keep warm.
It doesn’t get so cold often in this Florida place. So when it happens, the whole world falls apart.
Persons don’t know what to do with themselves, and even Girl Person who will only work outdoors decided that if she had to be outside with me, that we would at least have a fire. Except for the fact that she did not know how to build a fire.
Boy Person said that even with his cold feet, he would show her how to start a fire. And well, Girl Person had been wanting to learn this for a long while. But sometimes, Girl Person says when that Depression Monster has you, you can’t even do little extra things. Sometimes, Girl Person says that the Depression Monster tells you that you can’t do something, or that you have too much to do or that you shouldn’t stop working, even for a minute, because the whole world will fall apart. Like when it gets cold in that Florida place.
And so, even on this extended camping trip for almost three years, she had never taken the time to learn how to build a proper fire. Until yesterday.
Girl Person said that their vacation this month has put a lot of things into perspective. Girl Person said that leaving us was hard, but that in order to take care of others, you have to take care of yourself too. I always take care of myself, and I am not sure why that is so hard for persons to do. But that time away seemed to ignite a fire of sorts. Even coming back to the broken down RV made them wake up. Girl Person said that decisions here in the next few weeks have to be made, and now is not the time to get cold feet about changes.
IF changes are what they decide. So she said to celebrate the end of her cold feet towards life and decisions, she would start by learning how to start a fire.
Because keeping warm was as much of a priority for her feet as her heart.
Have you ever had cold feet? If you turned around when you got those cold feet, did it work out for you? If not, what are you running from now? Don’t be like Boy Person, but put on some socks and go get warm. But don’t bother coming to this Florida place to get warm. We can’t help you with that. Our fire already burned out. All they really ever needed to do was get that spark by looking at me. That’s. Hot.
-Sheriff Peanut Butter Brickle