This is Girl Person. It’s a good thing that I don’t need my leg to type the blog. I guess things could be worse.

I don’t know why we hide we are having a hard time from ones close to us. Embarrassment? Shame? Yeah. I’ve had that too many times. I’m tired of it!

I had someone ask me the other day, “things are hard for you there, aren’t they?” And I had to admit that yes. Things are very hard. Very wonderful and very terrible at the same time. Life is like that, isn’t it? 

Today, I wrote down a few sentences. And I said these sentences out loud. 

You are worthy.

You deserve abundance.

You don’t have to live in lack or suffer.

You will be able to help others in a big way soon.

You will save many more animals soon.

You can do this.

You can be a better and happy person.

You can be anything you want to be.

You are worthy.  Yes. I said it again.

I know it may sound cheesy, but I’ve been working on myself and this house at the same time. I know many may not see my work on either. But I want you to know I am putting in the work. I’m trying the hardest I ever have to make this work. Things are much harder than they appear. I wish it wasn’t the case. But things are also much more wonderful than they appear.

I didn’t expect this to be as hard. I didn’t expect to want to stay. I didn’t expect to lose Brickle so fast. I didn’t expect for it to devastate me and debilitate me physically and mentally.

I wish you could see the stars at night. I hope you can imagine them here. I wish I had more time to concentrate on the amazing things.  But I also feel I have to be honest and transparent. It’s a struggle to learn the language. It’s a struggle to afford necessities. We live day by day in all the ways! But you know what? I’m trying every day to be a little better. To accept more writing jobs. To work as hard as I can so that I can keep this blog going. I don’t just do it for you and for animals. I do it to stay alive.

Today is really hard and this week. Fruity’s accident was just worse than it looked! He was a trooper but wow. That cannot and will not happen again. 

I want to thank you for giving me this platform for all these years. I do not respond to negative comments or emails or messages any more. I’m worthy. I’m more valuable than that. I am making it thru every day and enjoying what we can entertain you with! I love you! Thanks for loving me. I hope you enjoy seeing a new version of me evolve. And I hope you’ll stay.

-Rachael 

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