Personally, the last month has been one of the absolute hardest times of my life. But in this time, there have also been many blessings. It’s a difficult thought process each day for me. I remember that Brickle made it here to his little house in Italy. And then I remember that he is physically not with me anymore. I honestly could have never, ever imagined how this would feel…to not have my soulmate by my side. He’s been a part of me since the day we met, and most likely, since my day one. Although I’m so thankful he is not in pain or discomfort any longer, I feel like that pain lives within me now. And I am more than ok to carry it if that means he doesn’t have to suffer.

Many have told me to move on. To collect myself emotionally and keep going…that I have to. Yes. I know I have to for Fruitycake. He deserved that. And I am. But that doesn’t mean some days I wake up and miss him more than I can explain. But I’m trying my hardest to channel my grief into fixing his home and getting my life in order…mentally and physically. This is a journey for me to. A healing journey. Just like we are fixing a forgotten house in Italy, we are trying to fix many things we have forgotten about ourselves.

We have a long journey ahead of fixing this house. Many behind the scenes moments are simply too much to go into. The hot hikes up the path. The nights we hear wild pigs outside. The bugs. The snakes. The dirt. The basic necessities I’ve taken for granted all of my life, really. No amount of camping could have prepared me for this!!!!!

You all really are the most supportive family. Ever. We are not ignoring you about an Amazon wishlist for supplies and tools. But it takes a long time to get orders here and we don’t get deliveries here yet. We can go pick up orders at lockers, but only for small items. So we make the trip to Genoa twice a week at least to get what tools and supplies we can afford and need for the house that week. We have a lot to figure out still!! We also don’t have electricity yet and rely on solar power so we use many tools with batteries. That’s the long explanation of saying thank you for your offers. This is overwhelming for sure. But we for sure will get Brickle’s house done little by little. If you’d like to contribute to our general tool and supplies fund, you can do so at

(You can specify what you would like us to purchase if you’d like. Suggestions more than welcome. You’ve had a lot!) https://www.paypal.com/donate/?hosted_button_id=B9BMD9M5D5KDU

And also, we would be more than grateful and privileged if you join our Patreon page where you get a secret photo taken at the house every day at patreon.com/UnderTheCrow. This avenue allows us to have a regular amount for big projects. Many. Big. Projects.

And don’t forget to subscribe to our YT channel at for all our long, weekly videos at https://youtube.com/@underthecrowitaly

Please. Do not feel obligated at all!! The most supportive thing for us is your comments and love and upbuilding as we try to come to terms with our grief, make Fruitycake’s life awesome and fix Brickle’s house while advocating for animal rescue. We love you. All. Please stay with us!

–Girl Person