This is Fruitycake. Also known as Fruity. Or Fruit. Or Frutta. Or Torta Di Frutta here in this Italy place.
Girl Person also calls me a hungry cinghiale. Like the wild boars here in this Italy place.
She jokes with me and calls me all kinds of things all day long. But when she calls me the Fruit Loop, I know I have done an extraordinary job in being myself.
And when I’m the Fruit Loop, no one can mess with my positivity.
I will admit, it’s been very, very and more very hard to be positive lately. But I listened to Brickle when he told me that I would have to dig deep like Digby and use my talents to the full. Even during the hardest of times. He told me that we all have an inner strength, even though some don’t know it. He said that sometimes we find that strength in the most difficult circumstances of our lives. I am finding mine.
Yesterday was a hard day for all of us. I do wonder why sometimes that Grief Monster seems bigger on some days. There we were, getting ready to go inside of a store to buy some supplies for Brickle’s garden. And as the persons were talking about their plans, Girl Person wept. Cried. Wept some more. We all just sat there. I was so worried I didn’t know what to do.
Boy Person tried to console me as I was consoling him. And all he had to go was tell Girl Person to look at me. That I was worried. That I wanted to help. And I did. And it helped her to know I was there. I was there with her in the store too. Even when she had to sit down and cry again, I was there.
I guess my abilities as a dog are actually superpowers sometimes. And your abilities are too. You may just need to recognize them yourself. I also recognize my abilities to enjoy pizza.
A lot of it.
I want you to know that I see your pain about losing Brickle.
I want you to know that it’s ok to be sad.
It’s ok to cry. But it is also ok to be ok some days.
It is also ok to try and do something meaningful to remember him.
Just like the memorial garden for him, which you are included in, grief is a project.
We just build on it and try to recover the best that we can.
Don’t mess with the Fruit Loop. That’s me. My job is to make you smile and remember that life is goofy. It’s ok to be you. It’s ok to use your strengths to help others.
–Fruit Loop
Fruity, grief is sneaky. It can show up at unexpected times. But, it’s ok to grieve. It’s ok to be sad and it’s ok to be happy. I know you are sad about loosing Brickle and Digby. That sadness can be overwhelming at times. But, you can be happy too . Both Digby and Brickle want you to be happy. They know you miss them and they miss you too. But they want you to enjoy life and experience what life can bring you. They want you to be happy. Being happy is a wonderful tribute to them. One day, hopefully, you can add another Beloved to your family and show them the love that the Persons gave to you 3 Beloveds. Life does go on and we need to find love and happiness each day. Prayers that you can find peace and love every day