This is Girl Person. I want to first acknowledge and thank each and every one of you. Some of you have texted me or emailed me. Some of you have left comments or sent messages. I haven’t been able to respond. And I don’t know exactly why. I just know that although I feel so grateful for you, I don’t have the right words to thank you yet. I will. I hope you know how much you all mean to our family. Because without you, we would not have been able to make it thru this week.
It’s been a hard week. I always knew that I would be devastated to lose Brickle. I suppose I’ve dreaded the moment of goodbye since the first time I saw him. May not make sense. But I knew in that instance it was a love that would change me. Forever. And it did.
I keep trying to focus on our good memories. And to realize that he is not struggling or in pain any more. That in itself is a blessing. I never wanted him to stay for me. But I knew those last two days, he was. His mind was too strong to give up. And he asked for my help. And a miracle…a true miracle occurred when a vet agreed to climb up this path to our house at night. I will always know that God helped Brickle that day. Because we begged for help. And because he loves Brickle even more than we do.
I don’t know what happens now. Because being here on this earth without him is very hard for me now. My Depression Monster wants me to give up. But I have Fruitycake. And Boy Person. And they need me. As much as I want to scream and yell or go to bed, if I do that, it’s not fair to Fruity. He deserves everything that Brickle and Digby had.
I also want to make sure I let you know that I will be giving my all this week. I will work on orders…merchandise and books. You’ve been more than gracious and patient. And I thank you for the allowances. But you deserve my best too. I have a responsibility to our 2 Traveling Dogs family and I won’t let you down. On top of grief, I’ve been dealing with no cell service and adjusting to a country that I’m trying to fit in to. And well, some days I don’t do a very good job. I’ll do better. I’ll be better.
For now, our blog will be by Fruitycake starting again on Wednesday. I don’t know what the future holds. But I’m hoping Fruitycake will guide me to what this will be from now on. To Brickle and Digby…the original 2 Traveling Dogs…their mission to Make Rescues The Breed Of Choice will not be forsaken or forgotten. Just like they will not be forgotten.
I love you all. More than you could know. I don’t always say or write the right things. I will strive to be better. And to do better. Starting with Brickle’s Memorial Garden with your tiles. This won’t be a quick project. But we hope you’ll stay with us as we build and film it.
And this week, I think some flowers are in order. Maybe some peanut plants? Oh, of Digby’s wish of a pancake tree was possible, we would do that too.
–Girl Person
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