This is Fruitycake. It’s a little hard for me to write the blog today. I guess I’m going to have those days. Yes. Most of the time I am determined to carry on this blog tradition. But then I have doubts. I wonder if I can do it. I wonder if others want me to do it.
Girl Person told me something surprising yesterday. That I have been with my family for over two and a half years. Can you believe that? Time is already slipping away!
It seems like yesterday that I walked out of that shelter to meet my brother Brickle. It seems like yesterday that I tried to fit it and to learn. Now, I’m learning to find my way all over again.
I had some new experiences yesterday. I took a bus ride and a train ride for the first times all in the same morning.
The persons had to go to their Italian language class, but we also had to get another rental car. So we had to find our way. And although I was nervous, I’ve learned that the best thing I can do with new experiences I am unsure about is to hop on and not think too much. So that’s exactly what I did. I guess that’s what I need to do with the blog too. Should I give up already?
I get to thinking that because Brickle and Digby were so loved and still are, that I don’t have the capabilities to do what they did. But Girl Person told me something. She said families are made up of grandparents and parents and kids. People live. People pass away. But the love in that family keeps going. It doesn’t stop with one person. Or one individual. Love has the ability to grow. It doesn’t go away for someone that has passed away. It grows on to another. It keeps going.
There is no stopping love. And since I am made of love, maybe I can keep this going too.
There will be some days I am lonely. Scared. Unsure.
There will be some days I remember what Brickle taught me and I will be confident.
But one thing is for sure. I deserve to live and experience life just like Brickle and Digby did. I deserve to grow the love they paved for me. The pavements they built I will continue on. I hope you will too.
–Fruitycake
