If I Leave Here Tomorrow.

This is Sheriff Peanut Butter Brickle.  It is not often that I am at a loss for words, or for barks.  Or even growls for that matter.  But yesterday changed a lot of things for many people.  And our hearts are breaking for them.  When we woke up yesterday morning, it seemed that day was night.  And night was day.


The past few weeks and months have been just, well, sad.  It does not help for me to go over all that has happened to so many people in so many places.  It also does not help for me to go into detail about the fires here in California.  Why?  The persons have listened to the news and read the news until their eyes hurt.  Even more hurt than from the smoke.  There comes a point where you just have to realize that some things?  Well, they are beyond your control.


One night can change a lot of things.  We were going to sleep when the fires started.  That day had been a great day at the beach and being together.


And we know many others had a great day too.  You know that we try to stay positive no matter what.  But we also try to be honest no matter what.  And honestly? Our hearts are broken. This place, well.  It means a lot to us.  Our hearts never left here five years ago when we left our little town of Glen Ellen, California.  And when we got back here, we were so happy.  We didn’t know our happy could be changed in an instance.  Tomorrow is something you can’t predict.

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?


Many know that if you have been reading what Digby and I have had to say lately, that it was hurting us to leave here in a couple of weeks.  In fact, because we didn’t know if we could stay, the persons found it hard to drive back thru where we used to live in Glen Ellen those years ago.  They knew that it would hurt too bad to see it and leave again, so we stayed out here in Bodega Bay.  As Sheriff, honest is the name of my game.  And there ya go.

But last week, we braved it and went to our old dog park there.


We saw our old places. and we are so glad we did.  Because now.  Well.  Most of it is gone.

Bye, bye, baby, it’s been a sweet love
Though this feeling I can’t change

When you love something so much, you can’t stand the thought that you might not have it forever.  So I have a question for you.  The things you love?  The people you love? If you leave tomorrow, will they know you loved them?  You may not have any warning, you may not have any choice.  You have a choice today.

Sometimes, our life takes us on travels we did not plan to go on.

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be traveling on, now

For many in this California place, they have not only lost their homes, but their memories.  There are many people here that have lost family members.  Some even have lost their lives.  And it will take a very long time to get back any sense of normalcy.  If routine is important to a dog like me, I can’t imagine how it is for persons.  Right now, we don’t know when we are going to leave.  Now we know that people need help, and to leave here now does not seem like the right thing to do, even if our own lives will be put on hold.


We thought we had our tomorrow planned.  But now we are not so sure.  One night changed everything.  And that may have happened to you in your life too. But you rebuilt.  You recovered.  And we know that the wonderful people here will too.  This place is not just made up of beautiful wineries and vineyards that our persons love.


This place is made up of working people, hard working people.  This place is made up of families and farmers and people and furkids.  When will we leave here now? Our tomorrow is uncertain.  But all tomorrows are uncertain.  Aren’t they?

We want our fans to know we are safe.  We are in the safest part of Sonoma County right now.  We are ready to leave the Big Blue Treat Wagon if we have to and drive out of here.  Because our life isn’t about stuff.  Our life is each other.  And we will be reevaluating in the next few days our plan.  This may change alot of our own plans.

As we have always said, in order to help animals, well, you have to help people too.  This goes hand in hand and paw in paw.  There are a lot of people in a lot of areas that need help right now, and furkids too.  Many of our fans and family are torn as to who to help, or they are upset that they can’t donate to every cause.  Listen up.  Not everyone can afford to donate.  Not everyone can travel to help.  But even hitting that “share” button on Facebook, or talking to a friend can help.  We all can so something.  Our “something” is what we need to decide on in the next few weeks.  And we know we can count on you for your support.  I am not even asking this time.

Many of our fans have asked about the rescue we visited here in Santa Rosa, California, Soft Paws Rescue. They evacuated safely, all animals are safe.


But some of the homes they operate out of are gone.  If you can help, please donate here.

Will we figure out what to do from here? We will.  But for now, we love you California.  We love your farms.  We love your food.  The persons love your wine.  We love how welcome we feel here and the simplicity of life here to enjoy the good things.  We love the small towns and the people that care so much about each other.  The places like Sonoma County are truly rare in this world.  We have traveled all over, and this place?  It is something special.  We love you.  And we will help you.

-Sheriff Peanut Butter Brickle

5 thoughts on “If I Leave Here Tomorrow.

  1. Jacqueline

    Sheriff Brickle, I would expect nothing else but this from you and your family. Of course you will help in any way possible, THAT’S WHAT YOU DO!!! My heart is breaking along with yours and I can’t even believe this is happening. Maybe, yet again, Life is Choosing YOUR Path. It would certainly appear that way. I know you’ve all been struggling with the decisions and finally you made one, but, as we all know, Life doesn’t work that way. Maybe you are needed there right now, as much as you’ve needed to be “there” before. Maybe, this is another one of your “callings.” All I want is for you all to make sure you are safe, it sounds like you are, and just wait it out. Maybe you aren’t meant to leave your Beloved Sonoma County just yet, for reasons that are not yet revealed. Either for your own safety, or to help others. Either way, truly tragic, unreal, and God Speed to, basically, the whole world I feel right now. Love you all so much. Hang tough. xoxoxo <3 <3 <3 <3

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